Talk to me

Morning my love,
Morning my sky dove
Morning my star
I woke up with a peaceful heart
No hurting headaches’ just Calm heart
And a voice inside me whispered to me like an art
Slowly but with a firm voice
It told me to talk to you and listen to every word u say
So here I am,

I want to listen to anything you want to tell me
And in any way u want to put it across.
Before the sun sets today
Before the moon makes love to the sea
I need to see you smile even if I am a mile a way.
I love you the same way.

Its hard for me.

ITS HARD FOR ME

I don't know where to start,

But i will put a pen on the paper and hope to make a start,

words are slowly failing me, cause i don't know where i am heading

I feel weak, like my body is being controlled

My mind is full of worry that tomorrow my never come.

Its not you, nor me, but the way things are turning out.

Its hard for me

To want to call you back home and make you stay with me

I know its hard for you too, you got your ambitions and career to follow

but you have to know that you were my only strength,

Someone i believe in.

Now its hard for me, cause I don't know when you will read this

I want to tell you about my last night cry, how my eyes went dry

because tears turned to tattoos on my cheek.

I thought about us, how far we have come

I thought about us, how far we have hurt each other

I don't know if you place your self in my shoes and feel my pain

But i do place myself in your shoes and feel your needs

That's why i let you do whatever you want to

Its not you, nor me, but the way things are turning out.

Its hard for me

To want to come and visit you, i have no money to spend to travel

To want to come and have fun with you, i have responsibilities that has trapped me

I want to fly and feel free

I want to dance and jump around like a baby

I want to travel and enjoy myself

but it hard for me

Everything is turning out different.

Its not worry, nor fear, cause it would have died if it were,

Its been past two weeks now and the feeling is the same

I don't want anyone to make me comfortable, nor anyone to make me happy

I know you got your friends, i got mine too, but you are my best friend.

Its been hard without you around,

When i walk, i feel alone

When i sleep, i feel alone

when we talk, i still feel alone

My past, my age, my everything that has lead me to be whom i am

needs to be with you, maybe not today nor tomorrow

But when you finish what you are trying to do

When you finish what you want to accomplish

Come home,

I miss me,

I miss you!

Cry..

Its hard for me to see you cry

more hard for me to think I made you cry

I dont want to ask you why you cry

I am here and together lets cry

Cry for what you feel inside,you know best

Cry on my shoulder, this is all yours to rest

Cry for me too, I don't know why, but lets cry.

Cry till our eyes becomes dry,

For the love we share, want us to

For the pain inside, want us to

And for the moon to balance with the sun

And for the ocean to balance with sky

Lets cry,

I want to stay this forever

and feel each drop of your warm tears on my chin

and feel your heart biting louder like a zulu dram

But love,look at me

Its ok, its done

Hold my hand and let me wipe your tears

Its ok, Its done

Smile and let yeastaday die

and Tomorrow awake,

I am right here by your side

And I love you to never move an inch away

Your smile

Nothing feels new than the daily art of you
the way you wake up wit a frown n suddenly change to smile
our hearts are a mile a way, but this way
this simple smile on your face between your full lips
is enough to send sunrays in my heart,

Learnt

I have learnt not to speak what’s in my mind
rather speak what’s in my heart,
I have learnt not to cling on things that won’t matter in the future
Rather than cultivate things that matter for the future

I have learnt that life moves fast and so is love
I have learnt that age is something and character comes from it
I have learnt that looks are good and so sometimes they deceive
I have learnt that we are all humans and so we make mistakes

I have learnt and accepted that when you grow you see things differently
and so the young won’t understand some directives
I have learnt and accepted that no matter how much you give to people
and that’s how mach some of them will stab u in the back

I have learnt that no matter where you go,
You will always come back where you belong
I have learnt that God wants people to have the best
You have to therefore make the right move

I have learnt to let go and strengthen myself
I have learnt to kneel and pray for my family
I have learnt to look for positive friends and share my worries
I have learnt to stop searching and live.

And so I have learnt

Lately

Have I told you how beautiful you are?
Have I told you how i am attracted to you?

Have I told myself I need to be your Man?
Have I behaved myself and Protected you?

Have I trusted you fully to set you free?
Have I Loved you to fall in love with me again?

Have I step up and charmed you like before?
Have I carried you and put you to sleep?

Lately,

Have you been mine all the time?
Have you let me lead as a Man?

Have you kissed me and never want to let go?
Have you missed me and put on my shirt to stay warm?

Have we improved ourselves to comfort each other in any way?
Have we thought of losing ourselves and be miserable?


Have we been friends and Lovers?
Have we been confident of each other?

New

Everything new,
Everything refreshed, even the sand is whiter
Not even a trace of build castles or children footsteps
Just the still waters and cool breeze

These days I write on the sand
But the wind blew away my words
These days, I sit by the sea and let the water come by
Come by to let it go again
Asking myself why am I feeling uneasy
Why does everything looks new, feels new

I listen,
Even my voice looks new
What happened, what changed
What did I eat to be swallowed into these unknowns
Why can’t I forget what I am feeling and wake up to live

So sick my stomach is
Even my mouth wants to vomit
Damn this sea smell
Its my bad season
But it shall come to pass
And I shall laugh again, smile again, dance again
And everything will be new again

Like a Horse

If I lost my way, I will trust my horse to take me home
But what will let me forget my path
A path that I have been ridding for three springs now,
May be it’s my weaknesses and my instincts that sometimes,
Sometimes confuses me.

As I walk to stop and caress its hair
So fine and warm, so natural and true
I ask him.
Why don’t you worry?
Why don’t you run away one day and be with the others?
Instead u let me ride you, ride you like your master?
The horse shook its head and soldier on
As if telling me ‘everything is superior ‘

I ask again, this time I looked to its eyes,
Tell me your secret of not to think and run boldly in the fields.
Give me your muscular strength and majestic walk
And Adamic voice, so that I could be like you
Let me have your instincts so that I can find my way when I am lost

Why look a way now, come here
Let’s ride now
I Understand.
Why should I worry when every day you are with me,
Why should I worry when everyday this path we are, will still be here
Why should I need more when I have everything?

Truly, I may be walking in the pregnant darkness
And truly it’s a happy moment when I am born

One Minute

One Minute
As we part ways on the matatu,
Before the next one minute,
I caressed your fingers and peck you chick
Before the next one minute we said we love each other
And said good bye,
I watched the dust rise as the matatu speed off

Before the next one minute
I thought I whispered a prayer,
But I needed to be calm so I will do it before I sleep
And when the night will be calm,

One minute, I walked
Thinking about yeasternight and how I am gonna miss you,
Till the next month it’s when I will see your cute face,
I know its gonna be hard for both of us,
Don’t get bored, enjoy the coolness of the land and calmness of the air

One minute, I said it loud,
I will try and keep myself busy not to forget you
But to prepare you a welcoming party
Be rest assured, I will keep your heart safe
Please do with mine too
Last Second , let me blow a kiss to the wind

Listen

Listen
My words speak the message of my heart
It’s warm and caring this heart of mine,
Its shape is of cupid and color of roses
And its walls is stronger than the word itself

Listen
I want you to stay in my heart forever,
I want you to stay US forever,
I am not tired of waiting,
Not at all,
But it is better I tire you a knot
And make you always mine

Look at me, don’t be afraid look at me
This world you see, is US to make it to be
To be with you has been every blessing to me,
To be with me has been every success to you,
To be with Us has been fruitful indeed

Listen
We have done mach, our hearts have kept a lot
Thou everyone has secrets, but every day we share
And I tell you it’s because we are comfortable of US

Listen
To Friends and family, listen to the wind
And the flowing Ocean
Let your mind remain still, let you ears open wide
And receive every love gift I give it to you
Listen, and you shall hear our hearts voices

Let me Listen,
Let me hear you what you want to tell me,
Let me listen you what you want me to behave
I am not yet perfect and that’s why we are two.
Not yet complete that’s why we are US

Again don’t be afraid,
This is me, your Man,
I will protect you and not hurt you not to forgive me,
I trust you with my life and all the love wrapped inside it
Be my friend and Lover too.
Listen to your heart before the next step takes you.

Battle of the Mind

I woke up with Sweat in my hands, Had Dream Last night
Driving copter over some Lands, Felt danger at the same time right.
Touched the Iraqi Dusty Sands, was sent to the hurt locker
Was heavy on Damn gears and die hard 5 came to play,

Pray, I did before I looked in right to the ticking clock.
Astray, I didn’t, got glued to the box, and saw the RGB wires,
Why did they sent me, so that I could die with them?
Lifted up my head and through the helmet, tattooed ties caught me.

Mothers clinging to their babies, crying for the unknown
Fathers holding their dicks, burying them in wonders,
Four seconds it clicks, three seconds my heart ponders.
Two seconds I got the green light, one second I cut the blue wire

A life saved, not lost.