ITS HARD FOR ME
I don't know where to start,
But i will put a pen on the paper and hope to make a start,
words are slowly failing me, cause i don't know where i am heading
I feel weak, like my body is being controlled
My mind is full of worry that tomorrow my never come.
Its not you, nor me, but the way things are turning out.
Its hard for me
To want to call you back home and make you stay with me
I know its hard for you too, you got your ambitions and career to follow
but you have to know that you were my only strength,
Someone i believe in.
Now its hard for me, cause I don't know when you will read this
I want to tell you about my last night cry, how my eyes went dry
because tears turned to tattoos on my cheek.
I thought about us, how far we have come
I thought about us, how far we have hurt each other
I don't know if you place your self in my shoes and feel my pain
But i do place myself in your shoes and feel your needs
That's why i let you do whatever you want to
Its not you, nor me, but the way things are turning out.
Its hard for me
To want to come and visit you, i have no money to spend to travel
To want to come and have fun with you, i have responsibilities that has trapped me
I want to fly and feel free
I want to dance and jump around like a baby
I want to travel and enjoy myself
but it hard for me
Everything is turning out different.
Its not worry, nor fear, cause it would have died if it were,
Its been past two weeks now and the feeling is the same
I don't want anyone to make me comfortable, nor anyone to make me happy
I know you got your friends, i got mine too, but you are my best friend.
Its been hard without you around,
When i walk, i feel alone
When i sleep, i feel alone
when we talk, i still feel alone
My past, my age, my everything that has lead me to be whom i am
needs to be with you, maybe not today nor tomorrow
But when you finish what you are trying to do
When you finish what you want to accomplish
Come home,
I miss me,
I miss you!
